4 weeks to nyc

OK been naughty haven't written much.  To be honest with different family problems and now works in the toilet haven't felt like it.

Any way given up the diet just trying not to binge.  Although after a stressful work meeting did demolish a family bag of buttons.

However I have given up drinkl until May and I am doing a 45 minute Zumba workout on the xbox and 5 k run a day.  Done it for 4 days now so feeling pleased with myself.

Hopefully the exercise will counter act the food choices.  Maybe need to realise at 40 I am just not meant to be a size 10 and concentrate on toning up the wobbly bits... that's the plan anyway.

Have sacked slim fast

weighed myseelf on friday and hadn't lost ANY weight... so harsh. Have given up n the slim fast.  now what.  only 5 weeks to New York very dispondant now.  Really am disgusted with myself.