Lost 2lb Is that it?

Weighed myself Friday  lost 2lb.  Now second week on slim fast.  God its hard.  Have been good though.  Well during the day, things tend to go to pot of a night.  Same old story.  Imagine what I could have lost if I don't have wine!

Slim fast it is then!

Been on slim fast since Fri. God it's hard work.  Haven't cheated though, unless you count half a fairy cake yesterday. 

 weeks and I will be in New York that's what the call serious motivation.

I am afraid I can't tell you what I weigh because A) I think its counter productive.
                                                                        B) I am too scared.

Work makes me fat!

This is the huge mountain of food that greats me when I sit in the staff room.  This isn't a special occasion just a daily occurrence.  I have now resorted to a slim fast diet.  Got only 7 weeks to NYC and I know my visit will be spoiled if I feel too fat when I am there.  I am hoping that by restricting myself so severely I will stop the binges.

I am looking forward to my cocktails later though!

Not Feeling Very Fab

Didn't go to Rosemary this week.  To be honest chickened out.  Knew all I have done is eat so Hadn't lost any weight.  Have been getting up every day to do my Zumba Xbox which is fab,

Put some work trousers on today and they are feeling snugger.  Can't blame the tumble dryer as I know these defiantly haven't been in!  What did I do to make myself better brought a chocolate bar and ate it when I got home.  Not good.  Although was only 117 calories.

Feel dreadful have a migraine and now got to to go to work.  Hoping they send me home but bet they won't.  Then got a concert tonight.  been really looking forward to it to.  Off to get some migraleave on way to work now.

Had a set back.

Had total humiliation at Rosemary.  Now weigh more then I started.  Think she may well ask me to leave as not good for business.

My sister said I shouldn't go any more as my self esteem is through the floor and its counter productive.  I am wondering if it's making me fat.

I should just be looking forward to my birthday and learning to love the way I am.  Realistically I am not horrendously overweight.

Trouble is I am an emotional eater and in times of stress I feel compelled to stuff my face.  Really need to see a physcologist I think.  Did something awful today, which terrified me.  i am under a lot of stress with family issues and I completely stuffed myself dinner time .

Too weigh or not to weigh that is the question....

Had a fab week last week Matt's birthday and then a lovely weekend away.  Unfortunately all this involved eating.  Meals, birthday cake, birthday cupcakes, Sunday roast, champagne... lots of champagne.  Oh I dread to think how many calories I have consumed.  Ate 3 cookies in one go.  soo bad.

Now I have to face the weekly weigh in.  Didn't do it last week because I chickened it.  New york coming up so fast and really have major will power failure.  Here is how my day collapsed:

Breakfast                                          Oats so simple                                   Good
Morning break                                 1 plum 5 almonds                                Good
Dinner                                              weight watcher bagel with salad           good

Then................................

Brought card and bar of Thornton's and fudge chocolate                                  Bad.   V Bad
Calvin's birthday at work so coffee cake                                                         Bad     V V Bad

Came home from work going to cl;ass so no tea yet

Bag Snackerjacks  98 cals
Muffin                   157 cals
Euans cold leftovers

Why did I ruin a perfectly good day?  I absolutely despair.... So to weigh or not to weigh?

Happy Birthday Matt

Still a dieting disaster.  Matt birthday this week so had lots of food and drink.  Can't seem to get a grip.  Have booked lots of trips for new york.  Away for weekend but going cycling and swimming so hopefully will try and undo some damage.  Run out of excuses come Monday.  Only 9 weeks to new york so gotta do well then.  Might try just eating fruit in day and then no carbs at night.. it's a thought.  Not a very exciting one.

At this rate my party dress will not fit.