The Dangers Of Wine ERHHHH

Had a diet danger spot.  Went out Friday night with my lovely friends.  I set out .. right not going to drink much.. Then I started. Unfortunately because I wanted to save my calories for the liquid form, didn't eat much then set about drinking large glasses of wine.  I have to say I lost count.  I had fab night but unfortunately can't remember most of it.  I do believe I was heckling the Micheal Jackson tribute act.  I have no idea what I said. What a tit.  The only thing for my favour is that I am a very happy drunk not maudlin or aggressive.  I just suffer from amnesia.  God did I feel so rough in the morning.  Did want to die.

Then I had to go to my lovely nephews birthday party which was great but not the best place with a raving hangover.  Then of course because your hungover you eat more.  Ended up having a KFC and then a doughnut and apple pie.  That's why you shouldn't drink on a diet because you have all the alcohol calories and then the hangover calories.  Not feeling confident about my weigh in this week.

Oh Joy 2.5lb

Wow weighed last night at Rosemary's and I have lost 2.5 lb.  Can't believe it .  That's even after 2 meals out and a weekend away.  I knew I had worked hard but sometimes the scales don't always show it.  That's it now fully motivated.

Still got those demons.

Its my first weigh in later with Rosemary. Hope It shows the effort I have put in.  Had bad day yesterday.  Sometimes gets to me at work, the uncertainty of whether were closing or not.  Especially when some old lady wants to volunteer to help run the library... Hang on a minute love I haven't been made redundant yet.  very scared about the future because I really don't want to start looking fro a job again and I have been very lucky and never been made redundant.  Thought there might have been a job at Matts place but he told me there definitely wouldn't be.  Don't know if that's just for me though!.

Despite all this I staid true to my diet and didn't head for the cream cakes.  Was so hard though.  Got Matts birthday present today. So excited.  Also got some new keep fit stuff as mine is on the snug side.  Did try them on first though nothing worse then camel toe haha.

I have a confession though.  I have brought an item of clothing.  A jumper dress in the sale .  Wasn't going to buy anything till New York so I am feeling disappointed with myself.  haven't quite controlled those Demons.  I think I have got an addictive personality though because I do get such a rush from spending money... Which when you look at my current employment prospects is not good.

Feeling Angelic

Well just come back from a fabulous weekend in Manchester.  Very wagtastic.  I have to report diet wise I have been a superstar. 

Went out for a meal Friday night and had salmon and salad swapped wine for G&T (half the calories) and NO pudding.  Then took my own sandwiches to Manchester and ate them while the kids ate KFC and last night had salmon and baked spud with no butter.  Did have half bottle of wine and a mini pudding though.  I refused the cooked breakfast and had porridge with fruit. 

Its strange though because I seem to have food under control I seem to have everything else under control .  I stuck to only buying what I needed and didn't for go my clothing pledge.. This is to only buy clothes when I can fit into a 10 and buy a New York wardrobe in one go.

I so hope I have lost this week after this monumental effort.  Friday was so disappointing only loosing one lb.  I so know I have been as good as I could be, Fingers crossed I can keep this up.

Still Motivated

Well started back at Rosemary's did the walk of shame have put on 7lb since October Gulp. Wendy (the instructor ) said bet you can feel that.... No shit Sherlock all on my ass and rotund belly.  Anyway been very good all week have done two RC classes and an hour on the Xbox.   Got a book now to fill in all my calories. Meant to stick to 1200 a day. Jeese so hard. Never really calorie counted before.  There is a lot of guesstimating going on but 1200 calories is NOTHING.

 Going to brave those dreaded Boots scales tomorrow V scary.  If I haven't lost gonna go insane because I know I have worked hard. Worried about the weekend though because going out for a meal Friday and then going to stop in a hotel Saturday will a huge English breakfast.  Repeat I will be good ... I will be restrained.

Stressed and Scared.

I am going back to Rosemary Conley tonight V scared don't think Wendy is going to be too impressed.  Oh well the only way is down (weight wise).  I know I will have put on at least half a stone since I last went which is very depressing.  Exercise wise I have done terrible.  Need to really get into a routine. Food wise I have done well the last few days. Going to be devastated if I haven't lost on Friday.

Weekend Munchies

Have tried to be good this weekend after my scale disaster Friday.  Went out for a meal with my lovely sister and drank too much wine.  then went for a lovely meal at the Old School House . Although did have fish with boiled potatoes but had wine and starter and pudding.  feel bloody enormous.  Was full of good intentions exercise wise but total disaster.  I really hate myself at the moment and all my clothes are getting tight.  Will definitely be back to it tomorrow and starting back at Rosemary Connolly Tuesday.  Although put on half a stone since last went in November.  How humiliating although I wasn't well but its just sad excuses.  Haven't worked out how many weeks to New York or party.  Must keep plodding on.  Matt very focused and sure he is skinnier then me which is not good at all.

Have been good today though.  No snacking.