Oh my god how did that happen!

Got on the scales today full of positivity.  knowing all week I had avoided all the bad stuff with a saintly no thank you.  I have even got my carcass onto the groaning treadmill and lifted weights.  How was all my hard work rewarded ... I have put on 1lb.  How did this happen.  So unfair when I know in my heart of hearts I have really tried.  nearly came back from lunch and reached for a Thornton's chocolate but no I stayed strong.

That's not the only disappointment this week.  part of my fab at 40 is to change my life in a different direction.  With this in  mind I went to college to enrol in a nail technician course only to be told it was Part 2 and they only do part 1 in the week when I work.  How unfair.  that was a chance to branch out on my own, which is what I want to do.  Back to the drawing board for me I think.

I have found my motivation.

Well I have not eaten chocolate or sweets since Friday.  That's 4 whole days whoop whoop go me.  This is despite being surrounded by chocolate at work and I even didn't join everybody else on Saturday munches.  I have been walking to work and even went on the treadmill yesterday.  I keep setting my alarm for early in the morning but I just have to accept that I am not a morning person and it's never going to happen.

The reason for all this motivation is that I have booked our fortieth Birthday party.  That is very exciting but now stressing that nobody is going to turn up.  Well I will be in a size 10 by then totally determined.

This is so hard!!

It's Saturday and I am at work surrounded by mountains of chocolates.  I am proud to report I have been at work 5 hours and not a single chocolate has passed by mouth.  I have decided to take it an hour at a time but I tell you what I feel really shaky.  I am sure its a sugar come down.  I really have had enough now.  I have broken into acne and all my clothes feel a little bit too snug for comfort and I really can't blame the tumble dryer for shrinking it!  I do have a curry when I get home but I am not going to drink wine and will not crack with the Saturday night munchies.  Just an hour at a time........

Week One dah dah dah

Ok just weighed and have stayed the same. Which, not the result I was hoping for at least I havn't put any weight on.  I really need to discover my will power as I am hoovering up the chocolates at work. Very bad times! must try harder.

Muffin Top

Well started day well nice healthy porridge.  Had my lovely friend round for dinner and ate a healthy baked spud and salad.  All very angelic. Then it went car crash wrong.  Unfortunately there is still a packet Asda Viennese biscuits in the cupboard that some kind hearted (but truly evil) person gave us for Christmas.  Now I swear that they actually spoke to me in the cupboard and before I knew it I had gobbled down four!!! Yes Four.  I haven't had any time to do any exercise and I am waiting for the husband to come back from badminton.  This I blame for the weakness of the biscuit.  Panicing now about Friday weigh in.  Will be very grateful if I haven't put on 1.5lb!!.

Going to listen to my Paul McKenna CD tonight.  Think Yourself Thin.  Need to get a grip on my compulsion.

Monce Pies 1 helen Nil

Off to a very bad start. The trouble is I have still have one packet of mince pies and a box of biscuits to go.  Today the kids went back and finding myself on an off guarded moment I realised I had accidentally popped a mince pie in my mouth.  And no this was not an ordinary mince pie this was an extra special all butter mince pie.  Then to make things worse because I had done that I then went and had 2 biscuits with my lunch and then 3 biscuits when I got home from school.  Bad Helen very bad Helen.

Not all bad though I walked down to Asda and back  and also did a session on the xbox.  On the whole though I have consumed far more calories then I have lost. 

Really must get to grips with this.  Only 4 more mince pies in the box left!!

Not off to a flying start.

I have a lady cold.... yes a lady cold so my new years good intentions are not off to a flying start.  I have still done my xbox work out.  The problem is there is so much food still in the house.  Yes I know that I don't have to eat it.  I think I am going to get Matt to take the last box of mince pies to work so I can start.  At least kids will be back to school Tuesday so lots of walking involved then and a bit of me time.  I haven't forgotten my goal of 1.5lb this week.