Weighed in last night lost one lousy pound. Must admit disappointed although did have the wine calories and kfc! Have decided to step up the exercise so hauled my lazy ass out of bed at 6.30 and went on treadmill for half hour. Will try to do that each morning. Feel better for it though.
Having a hard time at the moment don't mean to whinge but this time of year so difficult for me. Can feel the black dog of depression looming over me.Just sometimes feel crippled by self doubt and loneliness. Paranoia is crippling into my brain. Don't get me wrong I'm not a total fruitcake and I have been through worse but sometimes I really would like to disappear.
Just try to keep reminding myself that I am so loved by Matt and the kids (even if nobody else does) and I have so much to look forward to this year. Although that freaks me out because realistically really don't know how I am going to afford it all but your a long time dead aren't you.
Think all this stress and uncertainty at work doesn't help but I am actively looking at changing that so watch this space.
God I sound a right moaning mini today don't I? Well going to carry on and not crack and eat chocolate, crisps or cake!
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